ok first things first, Life all seems to be coming together at this point thing are looking good all because of My Awesome Father in Heaven. Yes I struggle but it's all so much easier if I lean on him and Give it to him. Yesterday I joined Weight watchers I for some time now have been feeling more and more like now is a good time for me to lose this weight. I am motivated and plan to stay that way. That being said God is Awesome. With the things falling into place in my life. We will be getting into a House at the end of march -All because of God! It's a long story and I wont bore you with Details other than that We knew about a house and prayed that if it was God's will that we would be able to Get it- And we are! I have been struggling with some anxiety and God laid a bible study in my lap all about anxiety. With other Friends from my Church. I cant say that my life is all Cheer all the time but Wow God you are so Awesome! you know what I need and how to put me there when I don't know how to make it on my own. So here is to the new!
Today has been a Exciting day Although I am tired and want some sleep. I am more turned around than usual of course I never have nor will I ever be a morning person. Anyways I joined weight watchers today. Dave is Doing it with me just not paying for him to go in and be weighed each week. It really sounds like alot of food even though I only get 34 pts a day you have to eat them all. But since I am a snacker maybe not that is my down fall. Some times I think it's out of bordom that I eat. So I need to find better things to do with my time. I need a nap !!
Because of you
You are the reason the I take each breath and the reason I am here
you know the hairs on my head and you count each painful tear.
because of you I can face the world outside my door for I know that
it's you my Lord that I live for.
You are the Sun that helps me face each New Day. That leads me and
Guides me when I have gone astray.
you never ask me where I have been but open heavens door.
and Give me all the loving words that I was looking for.
I need to remember that where I have walked you are their too. to lift me
from my sorrow when I am down and blue.
for when I am in sorrow you let me know that with each of the tears of
life and with each painful blow.
you hung on the Cross Loving and true to save me from this world I've come
accustomed to.
Rachel D. Vander Wall 2008 ©
This is a new thing I hope that I can keep up with it, But here go's I had a really Great time at our womens get together last night. I have been struggling along time with allot of things mostly anxiety. it's really hard for me to travel any distance without someone with me. But you know what God is so Awesome! Yeah I struggled to get out the door But God put me in a place I needed to be a place surrounded by people I love and that love him and I was blessed. On the way their I said Ok God Help me to make it their in one piece and not have to make a ton of Restroom stops on the way. When I got there I started to tell Annie about my problems and she said you should come to Tuesday morning bible study it's all about that. WOW! thats all I can say here I am struggling with Anxiety and that is what the study is about. You Know that God had me go to that tonight for a reason, Cause he wanted to help me. It's not easy for me sometimes to admit that I need help nor has it ever been easy for me get my thoughts out. Sometimes I struggle even with knowing what to say or how to say it and I run it over and over in my mind before I let the words escape through my lips. But God Has shown me that he will pick me up before I fall. And knowing that Gives me a sense of peace!
Yeah this is my first attempt at a blog. And I must admit I really don't know much about this, other than it's like an online diary I guess. Today is going to be a new start for me I need to promise myself this. For years I have struggled with my weight. Even as I write this I am Crying. But today I made a promise to myself because I am worth it that I am going to take this weight off. I am going to try and write my thoughts here every day. It will help I am sure. I have a membership to Curves also that has not been used in a long time, that is going to change. Sundays I will not be able to workout because they are closed, so I guess I will walk that day. I am worth the time it's going to take to overcome this battle. I know that Have a loving husband that will support me and a God that Loves me. I can do it I know I can.
