Grieving

This post is mainly going to be about what Has been going on with me lately, Allot of you know that I lost my mom last July. I thought that I had dealt with all the grief and pain then, but somehow it's surfaced again. I lie awake at night Mad and angry that she left me although I know she didn't have a choice I cant help the way I feel inside. I have always had her by my side, when I needed someone she was there she may not have been perfect but she was perfect for me. I feel alone in my suffering although I know God is there I feel like I have been abandoned. It has mad my anxiety worse so much so that I don't like to be left alone. I have good days and bad days. I Guess I just needed to vent. I don't know all the answers. But I have heard that getting your feeling out on paper or blog helps. Please if you are reading this Keep me in Your Prayers.

The Happiest Day of my Life!

On this Day 7 years ago, was one of the happiest days of my Life because I Married the Man of My Dreams, Hand picked for me By God. I cannot believe that I could have such a wonderful man and a wonderful Marriage. He is the Sole provider for us and He is good at what he does. I don't ever want to take that for granite. We Have been through allot in the last few Years Both of us losing someone we loved very much and was a Big part of our lives and who without neither of us would be here Our Mom's. Though it all we have stood together knowing we have a firm foundation on God & his word. I love you Baby For all the ways you love me for all the ways you calm the storms inside my heart when I am sad. He has a Special Way with me that no other Man that has circled my life had. I love him to the inner most part of My Heart. I Love you Honey Thank you for making me your Wife!

Happy Mothers Day in Heaven Mom!

To mom


Happy mothers Day in Heaven Mom!


There are not enough words to express the Love that I feel for you
the way you would talk to me when I was down and gently lift me to
common ground. I felt safe in your care and safe in your love.
God gave you to me a Gift from above. A mother to care for me, love
me and guide me, Life was so much easier with you beside me. But
one day you left me not of your choice to Go be with Jesus. You
herd his voice. I know that your in Heaven now looking Down on me.
I'm just so proud to call you my Mommy.


In loving memory of my mom

Patricia Rhea Hedglin


Love
Rachel

Making Plans

Dave & I are going to Texas next month to see my Grandma and aunt we will be there for a week we leave the 14th and come home the 21st. I am so excited I have not seen my Grandma in about 16 years. She is 85 and not in the best of health but I don't want to regret not seeing her if she does go. I am excited we finally bought our tickets and I am excited for Dave to meet my Aunt and Grandma.